The Quarter Life Crisis

So… I see this link on facebook and damnit! A realization sets in with my morning coffee... Whoa… I am already facing a quarter-life crisis. There’s a decent job, no boyfriend (no desire to have one either!), life is routine, hobbies are occasionally thought of (more like yearned on), friends are there but busy with their own lives, parents want me to just get married and fast. Sigh!

I again begin my daydreams of really enjoying life like I want to. Work 9 hours a day, 4 days a week. Travel on shoestring budgets and just discover places. Read and read a lot. Lose those extra inches and get a fabulous body. Discover something I am so passionate about that I lose myself in it and lose myself in this world. And so on… Everyday, atleast once a day, I daydream. 4 months away from being 25, I wish I were still 18 and would’ve done more. I wish my life were different and I wish I would do something.

The interesting part is, I know a lot of folks going through the same. They are bored with their jobs, they want no serious relationships (or are so committed in one that it doesn’t particularly count) and they want to read or travel or work in an NGO or just start something. There are just too many people of this category. And it made me wonder.. Why are we all so dissatisfied and unhappy? We have the ability and the power to make decisions for ourselves and yet we complain, we agonize, and rarely do anything about it.

The truth is we are a struggling generation. A generation trying to desperately bridge the gap between old and new. A generation who has seen the likes of the handheld phone and the smartphones to google glass. (Yes, our parents have also seen them, but unlike us, they are happy with the old tech!) A generation to have seen movies in single screen halls to multiplexes to Movies on demand on your home theater. A generation which has seen joint families, housewives and double income nuclear families. A generation that debates whether 24*7 connectivity is a boon or a curse (Remember the fav topic of school essays: Science a boon or a curse. Simpler times!) A generation that has seen a recession cycle and that actually understands how the economy works, how it can be fixed and well, how we can sit around and do nothing about it.

‘Ignorance is bliss’- that was the old saying. In today’s world of knowledge economy, all our wealth is knowledge. And I fear our generation has too much to process, too many things to consider and reconsider, too many options to seek information from. And with the rest of our world’s success and aspirations being rubbed on our face everyday with facebook and instagram, we really don’t want to make ourselves feel more miserable.

The average 25-year old today has seen enough changes in the world, that the pressure to make the right decision gets the better of us. Keeping up with this change is what we are learning and we Indians… Well, we are keeping up with the westernization vs. traditional war as well! It is a war out there… A war to get the perfect job, the perfect partner, a corruption-free developing/growing country, a robust economy… 

So lets cut ourselves some slack and do what we actually want to do. Make quick decisions and stick to them. Not think too much cuz that always made the decision more difficult. Let go off the pursuit for the 'extra' knowledge.. Why? Because you can. And stop this war in our own heads and hearts. Cuz whatever the war may be outside, we would finally want to die with no regrets and only peace in our lives.

And yes.. Happy Birthday Harry Potter! :)

26 Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do

26 Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do... (Why 26... well.. my birthday s on the 26th! Thats why! ;) )


1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
2. Try to secretly smell your hair,  but you always notice.
3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you and put his arms  around you.
6. Play with your hair.
7. His hands always find yours.
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he  needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile a lot.
17. Plans a romantic date full of  cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if he can't.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason.
26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking,  or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it.
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No.. I dont do Mills & Boons.. But there's a girl inside all of us who loves to be treated like a princess.. :)

Things Change

He couldn't smile. Even though he was sitting right there. In the very same place. In her arms. He was so close. His eyes, poring into hers. Looking for something. Anything. He hadn't been so close to her in three years.

Three years.

Three years back, his  head was all messed up. It was a mistake. A genuine mistake. But this was it. He had to, had to mend it. They both were broken, but they could fix this. He did believe it. Three years had put a lot in perspective. A LOT. He had changed so much. And this change was for good. He was a better person. Sorted, focused.

All he knew now was that he couldn't bear living without her. She was his everything. And he had to win her back. He knew she'd love the changed him. Love him just like three years back.

Damnit! Couldn't he have been like this, then?

But this, this isn't about the past. It was about the future.Why was she not saying anything? He had told her everything. He held her hand. Squeezed it ever so gently.

She looked away from him. A silent tear escaped her eye. Taking in a deep breath she looked back at him. The eyes looking into his felt alien. She said, gently holding his hand, a lump in her throat, 'I'm sorry. I am not in love with  you.' He insisted, 'Why?' He knew there was no one else. He knew she loved him, insanely. He knew she cared for him. What the hell was wrong about this? Why for god's sake couldn't she love him back? He persisted, 'Things change love. I've changed.'

And that was it. She couldn't hold back. Something snapped and she just broke down. All she could manage to say was 'Exactly damnit! Things change.'

The Simple Joys of Life

Getting your favourite dish for lunch
No traffic lights on the way back home from work
Winning a game of carrom (or any other sport!)
Someone saying, 'You've lost weight'.. :D
Talking to an old friend
Haircuts/ manicures/ perdicures :)
Compliments!!
 Random channel surfing and stumbling upon a good show.
When your crush smiles back at you :))
Surprises!
Laughing so hard that your jaw hurts
A good conversation
Checking out a hot random stranger ;)
A song on the radio that is totally 'You'
Finding out you have the exact change (while commuting)
Reading a horoscope which says its gonna be a good day!
Getting a handwritten letter






















*Excluded 'love' related stuff, cuz lets admit it, every moment is love ought to be joyful!

If the simple joys of life make you happy even today.. You are indeed a lucky person.. Cheers to smiling and thanking God for the good times spent!

Do comment on stuff which makes you happy and you never know you may be speaking on behalf of a lot of people!

Introspection

So many questions.. 
And answers that open doors to more questions
And its a stupid loop..
Like a whirlpool.. deep and more deep..

It doesn't stop until you give up..
You give up or you take a stand.
Right or wrong seem to be the wrong choices here
And the right thing to do just brings up more questions

But stay there.. it feels out of place
And it feels forced and unnatural.
But just like the consequence matters,
So do the methods


Let the whirlpool go away
And let the sea calm down
The water shall be clear
The answers will be there.

Rage

I wait.. Its not too long before a wave of madness gushes through me. Its like a tsunami.. waves upon waves who want to destruct.. At that moment.. anything in my hands or close to any part of my body can be fatal or destroyed. The cellphone can go on your head. I'll just throw the laptop on you. The table will be brutally thrashed into pulp. Gimme a hammer and i'll put Thor to shame. I could just demolish any existence of matter around me. Its not just anger, its Rage. The Hyde in me that doesnt want to hide. It wants to show the monster I can be and how anyone should be scared of it. You. Better. Be. $#!T Scared.

And then I grind my teeth.
Make a fist so tight that my nails painfully dig into my sweaty palms.
Tell myself that destruction will only make me pay (again!).
Force a countdown in my head.

And then I collect the pieces left stranded ashore, washed by the tsunami.

You Are...

You are the tear in my eye..

You are the breath of my every sigh..

You are my dream, my fairytale..

You are my prince who'll never fail..

You are my laughter in the jokes..

You are the bubbles in my coke..

You are the red on my lips..

You are my nervous fingertips..

You are the light of the morning sun..

You are my package with endless fun..

You are the patient soldier

You are my secret life's folder

You are the glow of my happy days..

You are the courage when things go astray...  

You are the joy of the first rain..

You are my pleasure and my pain..

You are the madness in my life..

You are the one to keep my sanity alive..

Love..

Love is patient and love is kind.
Love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude.
Love does not insist on its own way, is not irritable or resentful; It does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends...

(1 Corinthians 13:4–8a)

Dreams...

A dream... unconquerable and surreal

While I waited for my wounds to heal,

Flying again was not my dream

The horizon was distant and far unseen

And I tried and tried to recover

But time took time to forget all over

You were my medicine, my healing balm

A sea of care and peace and calm

And that dream became alive again

With you the journey did begin

And that dream became the destination

Of our journey of discovery and hesitation

But I was selfish to not see into your eyes

The dreams and aspirations in disguise

And hurt was not supposed to be there

I’ll handle my second chance with utmost care

Your dreams will be mine soon and for sure

Together we can win the world and so much more

They wont be separate ‘your’ dreams and ‘mine’

That horizon will be ‘ours’ to shine!

Two's company, Three is....

As my journey in SIMSR continues... These last few days are full of nostalgia.. And the first day.. the first friends.. the first memories.. the first classes.. all keep coming back. This one is dedicated to the first people i interacted with... My roomies..

The first time i entered my room, I was genuinely surprised.. It ended where it barely begun!! And 3 people living there!! Phew!! My bed was full of the mystery roomies' stuff.. And I was like.. Is this the kind of mess I'll live with...

Thankfully they were as amazing and as crazy as I was in a lot of things.. :) Food habits were similar (read: we absolutely detested mess food!) Our conversations were crazy.. We got 2 pseudo roomates.. so we were basically 5 living in a room..!! The habits were not annoying.. We always had good company, music, lights on at any time of the day or night, food and lots of crazy things happening..(Cant disclose a lot of details due to a lot of reasons!) (Like this night in the Jungle!)

But what I realised was that if two is company, three is definitely not crowd... infact its cool!! :) There's always company to take the 3rd person's case.. even if 1 person is not there, you arent alone.. you have someone to talk to most times.. 1 out of 3 will turn out to be able to kill/get rid of cockroaches too!! You'll have a moderator to settle the arguments and atleast one of the other two will wake you up in time for classes!! 1 of you will know how to pick the lock!! Atleast one will know all the right places to go to. Chances are that you wont have to worry too much about notes just before the exam, atleast 1 will have all notes!! And atleast 1/3 will have some knowledge about the subject to just help with the last minute revision!! Its so much more fun with 3!!

The 2 years spent here were some of the best times spent.. And Thank you Mankan & Dogan for the nice memories.. Turtlan and Daayan.. for being a part of both 305 & 604!! Love you all!!